偶尔

分手已经过了好多天
感觉却好像是昨天
我和你
在爱情边缘绕了几十圈
始终逃不了分离的局面

我和我自己挣扎了好多遍
朋友再怎么劝我不顾一切
因为每一天每一夜
不管有多么的疲倦
我尝试一夜间改变
适应没有你的世界

偶尔会想念你的脸
偶尔会想回到从前
偶尔会翻出那些旧照片
还有那些被遗忘的誓言

偶尔会想和你见面
偶尔会心酸一点点
偶尔会想起分手那一天
还有你那若无其事的脸

我和我自己挣扎了好多遍
朋友再怎么劝我不顾一切
因为每一天每一夜
不管有多么的疲倦
我尝试一夜间改变
适应没有你的世界

偶尔会想念你的脸
偶尔会想回到从前
偶尔会翻出那些旧照片
还有那些被遗忘的誓言

偶尔会想和你见面
偶尔会心酸一点点
偶尔会想起分手那一天
还有你那若无其事的脸

我爱你

自从我认识了你
生活比从前美丽
就算不能看到你
重复看着你的简讯我也会开心到底

我知道　我们不是最登对的情侣
也不会　有像王子公主般的结局
所以我把每一天
都当做是奇迹
因为和你在一起
我不想和你分离

我原意　而我可以
天天对你说一万遍我爱你
我原意　而我可以
天天陪你直到你把我看腻
我原意　而我可以
热晒雨淋说笑话逗你开心
因为我是真的很爱你

最爱听你的声音
你那傻傻的神秘
把平常日子变得甜蜜
一句话多层含义连我也搞不清处境

我知道　我们不可能永远在一起
也不会　有所有人的祝福和肯定
所以我　更加努力
证明我的决定
因为没有你
我会失去生命的意义

我原意　而我可以
带你去看你最爱看的电影
我原意　而我可以
为你解决你所面对的难题
我原意　而我可以
努力学习给予你要的爱情
因为我是真的需要你
Baby, 我是真的很爱你

最后歌曲

望着灰色的天空
想起我和你有过的梦
说好一起看彩虹
现在只剩下我寂寞难过

每当我闭上眼睛
看到的人第一个是你
心里又忽然麻痹
那么多回忆我如何忘记

这是我为你写的最后歌曲
虽然不比情歌那么动听
可是我要说的都在每一句
真心真意的歌词和旋律

也许太习惯有你
所以不懂得如何珍惜
现在每晚梦见你
我是否也存在你梦里

这到底是谁的错
也许命运要这种结果
我始终还是不懂
为什么会发生在你和我

这是我为你写的最后歌曲
虽然不比情歌那么动听
可是我要说的都在每一句
真心真意的歌词和旋律
也许是我不习惯没有你

这是我为你写的最后歌曲
虽然现在都已经来不及
可是你听的还是我的声音
对你说你熟悉的我爱你

你走了以后我渐渐失去笑容
翻出那记载我们甜蜜日记
认识你是个最大的奇迹
所以我尊重你的决定


这是我为你写的最后歌曲
虽然现在都已经来不及
可是你听的还是我的声音
对你说你熟悉的我爱你
(对不起我还是很爱你)

HELL

I've always wanted to open a restaurant. haha
yea. and i wanted to open a ferris wheel restaurant, but sadly, how is it possible? haha

anyway, i've come up with a better idea!

I will open a theme restaurant cum bar.

the restaurant will change its theme like every 3 months.
and i thought of 1 theme already!


which is "HELL"

when u are pissed at your friend or girl friend or boyfriend,

and they asked you where do you want to eat,

you can now nicely say

Go to Hell. :)

basically, the whole place will be like dark and with red, hot flames all over, like yah. hell.
then when you enter, the hot waiters will like say, WELCOME TO HELL.
the waiters will be in red trunks carrying the devil that stick. haha.
then the tables and chairs will be like woohoo.
and the chairs will have like this fake fire burning. occasionally spurting out "smoke"/ dry ice.
then the food will be like named like all the hell food lah

like

BLOODY HELL
HELL-O
HELL-YES
HELL-NO
WHAT DA HELL

and so on.

and of course, the food will look hellish.

and there'll be this surprise dish called
what the hell am i eating. whereby it's a random food of the day.

and ya, if customers come dressed in the theme, they will get discounts, etc.

we'll also have people to dress up as monsters to scare people. wow right?

and after 3 months of hell,
we'll have a party to 'commemorate'.
and the next day will be like

Hell, it's over.
then another theme. woohoo right?


OH WELL. but
i am only thinking of doing it. no capital.
no money. no nothing. oh well.

distant.

perhaps i am being too sensitive again.
but well, but at least i do care about this relationship.
But it just so appear to me that we're just going more and more distant.
i know you wouldn't be reading this blog.
but yea, it's really so hard to bring it across to you
cause eventually, it's gonna be my fault again.
i'm not trying to push the blame to anyone or anything, but i am just gonna going to say and wonder why are we becoming distant.
i miss the old us.
old as in perhaps, last week.

alone.

it just feels so terrible to be alone. you think. of things. many things, any things.
and when you really need someone to be there, for perhaps that few minutes, they may not spare you the time.
or you may reject, but silently in your mind hoping that he will just continue talking, about anything. But oh well.

anyway, i hate my civics tutor.

imagine a boy who goes to school punctually everyday, except for once when he was sick.
he doesn't smoke, he doesn't fight, he doesn't talk back to teachers.
he does his work, sometimes late when he got a lot of other homework, but he still handed them in.
he doesn't give teachers any major problems.
BUT he doesn't talk to people in his class because they dun wanna talk to him.

but his conduct was : Good
the worse he ever got.

compared to another female classmate in class of another type.
She is small, but because of her type, she is popular among certain people in the class, including the teacher.
She is frequently late.
She skips school.
BUT she talks to people in the class, just because she is a GIRL, and she got the same thing as the teacher, she got a EXCELLENT.

oh well. the world has changed. the teachers are getting blinder and blinder each day. I hate people more and more.

perhaps, that explains my recent character. whereby i really cannot control it, but the whole mentality in my head whenever i see the person i hate that much, is to destroy the person.
well. new torture for someone. :)

i shall lock her up in a room whereby i put smelly pork with mosquitos all over, then lock her up inside for 10 days.
after that, if she din eat, and dies. good.
if she eats, hor hor, then cut her flesh. and pour honey on it.
and release bees on her. :)
well. think of the rest yourself.
and i shall make her sons become daughters.

go figure who. :)

just like the tongue,

we first experience the sweetness.
then a little salty.
then sour.
and then the bitterness.

oh ho. relationships.

sad truth about 06A04

if you want me to list 10 bad things about my class, i am afraid it's not enough.
but anyway, here are like 5 TOP bad things. wahaha. cause firstly, i can't be bothered with them, and also, i want to go study. haha

1. HYPOCRITICAL like. i dunno. fake people. plastic

• imagine they pretend to be so good to you and all the stuff eh. BUT that's when they need something from you. like you know, notes to photocopy, etc. haha. BUT when you're of no use to them, they wun even remember you're from their class. awww right?
• they should all just have a middle name call fake or they can win an Oscar Award. haha. i pity them for having to act everytime. :ruffles: *then runs off to wash my hand THOROUGHLY with Dettol and whatever nice to wash off all the DIRT* yucks.

2. LIARS whose noses can fight with Pinnochio

• oh yea. now is the prelims round the corners time, and we have tests like frequently. now and then and everywhere. But somehow, people just lie to you about them not knowing or going for the test, or yea, i dunno. Haha. then suddenly, you know, that person had already taken the test. long long ago already you know. awww.
• yah. but then again, haha. wat's the use of taking the paper first, u fat piece of shit and whole load of crap. drown yourself in the oil that you accumalate in your body for years. yucks.

3. Act cute bunch of monkeys who are so niave and think they're so freakingly pretty.

• just imagine morning assembly with a whole bunch of weirdos cheering someone that even someone 100 m away from the field can even hear. ewww. haha. morning crows chirping. yucks. haha.
• and imagine people saying how hot some guy is and how handsome and everything. yah. say somemore lor. cause they're never be yours. :)

4. gossipy. like the fishmonger auntie

• they themselves are not even pretty, and they still think that prettier people are ugly. haha. oh well. perhaps, it's time to give them mirrors for their birthdays. is it the 40th yo b'dae alr? aunties? haha
• and when there's a test on gossips, i m sure they will top it. =)

5. last but not least, R*****.

• i shan't elaborate much. they know it, and i know what happen. haha.
• if there's any riots in future, i know who is responsible.

omg.

yea. it's like the 4th day bitch. haha
good luck for your paper tomorrow :)

anyway, i am damn confused now. How. it's like a step further, i will die. I step back and i will die too. 进退两难.
I'd never have been in such a situation if not for someone. haha. but never mind, i shall just treat the person as a stranger from now on and fully utilized the one month :)
someone who doesn't practise what he preaches is such a *i dunno wat*
oh well. what can i do? write songs and cry all day for that person? No way. never.
i gave someone the last chance. apparently, it just comes to show that how fragile the friendship could be. perhaps things were never meant to be this way in the first place. or maybe that is just the bridge connecting the previous chapter to the next chapter.
whatever it is, it is the most beautiful, yet terrible, but thank god, shortest chapter.


oh ya, and i saw HQ's post. omfg. haha
time really flies.
i really wondered what my life will be like if i din join TPJC. and Student Council.
though as much as i hate these choices, i dun really regret them as i made like damn close buddies and friends in the school. and i feel so like listing them now. :) and it's like only a few more days left before school ends. awww.

• HongQi
• Kelvin
• Daryl
• Michelle
• Jialin

they really helped me through a lot of stuff yea. haha. well. dunno lah. i feel so weird now. and omg, i wanna kill someone or something. haha.

and random-ness was the thing in my mind today. i made a list of things that i want to do before 30. haha. here it is. :)

1. write a book
2. earn my first million bucks
3. appear on TV
4. get married and have 2 kids. :) one guy and one gal prefably.

omg. total randomness. Go study, ivan.

happy and smiling

yea. deleted.

just like a roller coaster, you can never stay at the top forever, we still have to come down somehow, sometime.
but just as the roller coaster promises u an exciting ride of your life, u stupidly fall for it and jump in, only to realise that the 'ride' is that short.
or worse still, the roller coaster doesn't move at all.

mum

u know, the tears i see in her eyes.

i really feel so sad.
she's been through a lot.
she's braved it all, alone.
she's strong, yet weak.
and yet i still always do things that're disappointing.

i hate to see people cry, especially my family
for i m not good at words
and will cry together as well.
MY mum, is such a great woman.
She cares and concerns us. and i love her.
so pls dun be sad anymore mummy. :(

you still have us.

new life...

i think i should just cut my ties off from that world of misery,
and start a new life, shouldn't i?

i'm torturing the person you abandoned.
physically and mentally.


ivan, it's time to move on.

就是在这里

你为我弹的曲
现在在我脑海播映
连续的不肯停
我后悔没有珍惜你

你给的望远镜
怎么看也看不到你
眼前没有光明
未来没有你看不清

就是在这里
你放开我们的爱情一人离去
就是在这里
我回头看见你已经放下感情
就是在这里
你忘了我们许下无条件约定
就是在这里
你曾经对我说 我爱你

爱情已成过去
尝试一人学习回避
不问也不怀疑
当时的你是否真心

我怕你会忘记
所以我才天天提醒
逼你说那一句
让你决定选择放弃

就是在这里
我们最后一次相遇不象曾经
就是在这里
你作出残忍决定拿回你的心
就是在这里
你叫我放弃然而我还是哭泣
就是在这里
你曾经答应我 不离去

就是在这里
我还是很想你…
忘不了的约定…
我受不起 我还是很爱你

disappear

i want to disappear from the world. period.

Peace

Peace

When you chose to leave me
With that one short last kiss
I told myself that I will never believe again
Again

I played that melody
Without any lyrics
Cause I cannot think of what I want to sing for you
For you

All I want now is just some peace
A time alone all for me to think
The sad memories in broken pieces
Hidden in things you gave to me

All I want now is just some peace
Remind me of things that make me happy
But I know there’ll be nobody
Who can make me feel like this
I’m prepared to be lonely

I woke up from my sleep
But remain in that dream
All I want was to leave this memory so help me
Help me

As I walk to the sea
The footprints still exist
I hope the wind will bring me to where I want to be
To be

All I want now is just some peace
Save me out from that misery
And all the other extremes
That stops me from leaving that dream

All I want now is just some peace
Not just yet another somebody
I’m not ready to give
My broken heart to anybody
I’m prepared to be lonely

When there’s peace, I wouldn’t think
Of those things that made me happy
When there’s peace, there wun be misery
No tears rolling down my cheeks
When there’s peace, I wun be somebody
A quiet nobody, where problems wun exist,
For me
Peace is simplicity.

gay.

my surname is not Gay. thank you. :)

Revenge : physical #5 * Knock*

yay.
before the "torture", ensure the person just bought insurance. haha

anyway, this one is rather nice, and not so cruel.

• yea. firstly, the person jaywalks!
• then, he gets knocked down by a car and fly to another side,
• and continues being knocked by say 5 more cars, until a bus comes along
• and run over him.
• and the bus stops, with his body still under the big and heavy tyres.
• yea. wait, the person is still not dead yet.
• he will be in the ICU for life.
• paralysed and his body parts malfunctions.
• BUT he can still see.
• how his family have to pay his medical fees and everything. so pathetic
• and he can't claim insurance oso. =)
• and oso have to pay for the cars damage.
• awww. :)

travel round the world

I want to travel around the world. alone.
and i dun want to be a backpacker.
i want to buy my clothes there, and just send it back to Singapore after that.

I want to go to Europe.
would you come with me?
would you be my ATM card? haha.

for once.

for once. i dun curse today.
cause i have history tmr and i dun want to have karma! haha
BUT i will post in one shot like tmr or sth. cause,
on the bus, i saw so many new means of torture!
i saw a van fuming with smoke :)
and a bus behind. wonders if someone gets run over and over again:)* hints hints*
haha. nvm

oh man. today's crap. totally.
not even civics!
i went to school to wait for school to end. :)

i think the weather loves me,
whenever i go swimming, the sun just happens to come out.
like before i step into the pool and after i leave the pool, haha. there'll be like this rain.
muahaha.

and i seriously think
my room is being 'ransacked'
by myself.
but i simply love the mess :)

i lay a curse for you

hey you.
the ZERO. =)

i hope all the old men sleep with you
You contract STD. all sorts of STD.
and it becomes infectious and u go to CDC.
You've lost all your friends and all your family.
and you can never ever swim again cause you're stuck in that small little qurantine room
and as u cannot exercise and indulge yourself in the good food you get, you grow fatter and fatter each day.
and one day, you see those pimples poping out all over your face and body.
and the you-know-where.
and u look into the mirror someday
and see the new true you
and u take a knife and dig out your eyes for you dun accept the truth
You've got no one to turn to. yea. maybe me,
BUT
I'll just be there sitting and laughing at you.
oh. wait, you can't see me eh?
gd thing too. cause later u'll be jealous of my much better -than -you looks =)

Revenge : physical #4 *GROSS *

i think this is rather gross, but it simple love it :)

1. so u grab 2 enemies.
2. then u have 2 of their kins in front of them tied up.
3. u feed the 2 enemies with lots of laxatives and water, and make them want to shit and pee.
4. however, you dun give them the toilet, and the only possible 'toilet' around will be the other party's mouth. :)
5. and so u wonder what the 2 kins are for.
6. if the enemies do not 'aim' properly, do the following like step by step. haha.

• dig out one of the kin's eye
• cut a bit of the flesh out
• haha. give them electric shocks
• pluck out their nails
• use a knife and carve a name on their forehead. :)

anyway, like whatever things u extracted from the kin, u mixd into the blender and feed the enemy. until he decides to shit properly, or die peacefully. :)

joke #1

i realise i should bring some laughter in this blog.

There was this haunted house on a hill...
Tom, Dick and Mary wanted to investigate whether the house was really haunted...
Tom went in first...the place was so dark he can't even see his fingers...
he came out of the house and said what he had seen..total darkness!
Dick was the next to go in...
like Tom he cud see nothing....
he was scared so he came out of the house...
Mary was the last to explore the house...
she walked in and saw that the house was brightly lit...
curious about why the boys cant see anything that was inside the house...
she walked out and described to them clearly wat was the house like inside......
Question : Why Mary can see clearly in the house but the boys can only see total darkness?























Because Mary had a little "lamp" (lamb)

Revenge : physical #3 * SUCK*

yea. as the tittle suggests, suck. :)
dun think naughty. haha

1. 1st, this you can get 2 people u dislike for this act.
2. yea. haha. tie them up.
3. and yea. use those eh. needles and suck out their blood. =)
4. fill them up in a container.
5. and wait till like 30 rounds of blood extraction, pour the blood collected from person A to person B's mouth.
6. vice versa.
7. then continue with the blood sucking.
8. haha. then maybe pour like hot steaming curry and loads of chilli over them. yum yum.
9. and then store them in a fridge.
10. say 10 days? =)

bleh.

From the way you speak to me
I know something’s amiss
I asked you nicely
And yet you refused to admit

I thought I am lucky to have known you
On the contrary you brought me misery
You were the best friend I had
Now you are the greatest enemy, one can ever get

The pooh bear that reminds me of you
I hope it rots and die of honey over-use
The pretty girl you once said was cute
Seeing her sit with you actually makes me puke
The instrument you use may be cool
But not when the player is somebody like you
The words you said to me may be true
YES, I’ve forgotten them halfway thru
Coz they’re meant for losers like you

The days I had without you
The air’s fresher and cool
A new dartboard out of you
I plan to give my violent nephew

And I always thought friends are forever
Not until the day I met and know you
You showed me your true colours
I see the other side of you, and hope all your friends leave you

The pooh bear that reminds me of you
I hope it rots and die of honey over-use
The pretty girl you once said was cute
Seeing her sit with you actually makes me puke
The instrument you use may be cool
But not when the player is somebody like you
The words you said to me may be true
YES, I’ve indeed forgotten them halfway thru
Coz they’re meant for losers like you

You may have done many things for me
I will never thank you for tidying up my room
The singers you like are such bitches
Who can’t sing and only know how to shake their boobs
The picture we took I said it’s cute
It’s me that I was referring to, not you, bleh.
The things I gave may still be with you
NO, I think, you’ve long thrown them down the rubbish chute
And yea, you should also go down too

Yah yah. Friends forever, my foot
You may think it’s true
But look again, at what you’ve just proved
You treat friends like they’re fools
and yea, that’s the truth.